I need a small favor of you. If you liked my mod, consider giving me just a few minutes of your time. I promise that this isn’t what is sounds like. Please listen to the following video, and share it with anyone you can, and ask them to do the same. That’s it.
I’m not an aspiring youtuber trying to gain subs. This isn’t a plug or an ad. The fact is that I am not a healthy person, and I have a problem that I’m trying desperately to solve. I’m actually fighting for my life, really. But no, this isn’t charity, either. All I’m trying to do is start a conversation and make people think. Just listen to the video, and you’ll understand everything.
To the Nexus staff, I know how this looks, but please give me a chance. I realize that there is a rule against irrelevant and/or advertising forum posts or comments. I beg of you to be lenient and hear me out. I have been in a desperate battle for my life and sanity for a very long time, and no matter how hard I fight, things only get worse, and no one listens or cares. Every time I reach out for help, I am met with cold shoulders, deaf ears, and immediate banning. I realize that this is not the appropriate place for this. Trust me, I’m not blind to that, but I’ve tried the appropriate places and channels for years, and nothing works. Please don’t just tell me to go to Better Help. That’s not what I need. I need this message to be heard, and believe it or not, this is truly the best and only place that might help me spread this message. My mods are the only things I have ever posted online that have gotten any views or attention. It’s the only thing I’ve ever had any amount of success with. I’m trying this because I’m desperate and it’s a last ditch effort.
However, despite all that, I still wouldn’t ever dare use this platform for such a purpose if I wasn’t a serious mod author. I would never make an account with an ulterior agenda, and I would never dream of posting some bogus, garbage mod just for the purpose of linking this video. That wouldn’t help, anyway, as no one would look at a garbage mod. I am indeed a serious author. I am very passionate about Skyrim modding. In fact, it’s really the only thing keeping me going at the moment. One look at any of my mods should make it abundantly obvious that I am a serious author with a commitment to quality. I would never, ever attempt to commandeer this platform for irrelevant, inappropriate purposes. I make legitimate, quality Skyrim mods that I am proud of. I am taking a great risk to ask this small favor of the community because I am truly desperate, and out of options. I’m terrified to post this, but the feeling of despair and hopelessness of not trying is worse. Please—this place and my mods are everything to me; please allow me to stay. Please, I beg of you, be lenient, give me a chance, and don’t take away the only thing that gives my life purpose anymore. Please, at least do what no one else has been willing to do—listen to the video. Consider my words before taking disciplinary action. Just give me that much.
To the community, please do not post anything whatsoever about the video here. Keep all posts relevant to this mod. I’m not supposed to be doing this as it is, so I can’t have the comment section derailed. Resist the temptation to say anything about the video here. That will only make trouble for me, as I’ll have to hide the posts. Just listen to it. That’s all I ask. Thank you.
hello. After seeing your mod, it reminded me of a very ugly vanilla pose. It is the pose of an NPC woman lying in the shallow spring water in the Volcanic area with her arms behind her head. The shoulder in this pose is very ugly, but sadly there is no mod to fix this. If you look at the various vanilla poses where she raises arms above shoulders, there are also some that don't break shoulders like that. And so is your mod. very natural. Do you have any intention of making a mod that modifies the pose in which lying with arms behind head?
All character meshes are known to be glitchy when it comes to the shoulders. Because the models were made with their arms hanging to the side rather than the more normal t-pose, everyone's shoulders gets squished if they ever raise their arms above their head. If you want to see this for yourself without mods, go to that hunter's camp in the Rift where the npcs are skinny dipping. One of them often lays on the ground with their arms behind their head. This clearly demonstrates the issues with the shoulders. Its the only vanilla animation that has a character putting their arms up like that, which is why its not too apparent without mods. Realistic Ragdolls and Force actually locks the arms so they can't go straight up while an npc is ragdolling, just to avoid this glitch.
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I need a small favor of you. If you liked my mod, consider giving me just a few minutes of your time. I promise that this isn’t what is sounds like. Please listen to the following video, and share it with anyone you can, and ask them to do the same. That’s it.
https://youtu.be/a-Uh7kenedI
I’m not an aspiring youtuber trying to gain subs. This isn’t a plug or an ad. The fact is that I am not a healthy person, and I have a problem that I’m trying desperately to solve. I’m actually fighting for my life, really. But no, this isn’t charity, either. All I’m trying to do is start a conversation and make people think. Just listen to the video, and you’ll understand everything.
To the Nexus staff, I know how this looks, but please give me a chance. I realize that there is a rule against irrelevant and/or advertising forum posts or comments. I beg of you to be lenient and hear me out. I have been in a desperate battle for my life and sanity for a very long time, and no matter how hard I fight, things only get worse, and no one listens or cares. Every time I reach out for help, I am met with cold shoulders, deaf ears, and immediate banning. I realize that this is not the appropriate place for this. Trust me, I’m not blind to that, but I’ve tried the appropriate places and channels for years, and nothing works. Please don’t just tell me to go to Better Help. That’s not what I need. I need this message to be heard, and believe it or not, this is truly the best and only place that might help me spread this message. My mods are the only things I have ever posted online that have gotten any views or attention. It’s the only thing I’ve ever had any amount of success with. I’m trying this because I’m desperate and it’s a last ditch effort.
However, despite all that, I still wouldn’t ever dare use this platform for such a purpose if I wasn’t a serious mod author. I would never make an account with an ulterior agenda, and I would never dream of posting some bogus, garbage mod just for the purpose of linking this video. That wouldn’t help, anyway, as no one would look at a garbage mod. I am indeed a serious author. I am very passionate about Skyrim modding. In fact, it’s really the only thing keeping me going at the moment. One look at any of my mods should make it abundantly obvious that I am a serious author with a commitment to quality. I would never, ever attempt to commandeer this platform for irrelevant, inappropriate purposes. I make legitimate, quality Skyrim mods that I am proud of. I am taking a great risk to ask this small favor of the community because I am truly desperate, and out of options. I’m terrified to post this, but the feeling of despair and hopelessness of not trying is worse. Please—this place and my mods are everything to me; please allow me to stay. Please, I beg of you, be lenient, give me a chance, and don’t take away the only thing that gives my life purpose anymore. Please, at least do what no one else has been willing to do—listen to the video. Consider my words before taking disciplinary action. Just give me that much.
To the community, please do not post anything whatsoever about the video here. Keep all posts relevant to this mod. I’m not supposed to be doing this as it is, so I can’t have the comment section derailed. Resist the temptation to say anything about the video here. That will only make trouble for me, as I’ll have to hide the posts. Just listen to it. That’s all I ask. Thank you.
After seeing your mod, it reminded me of a very ugly vanilla pose.
It is the pose of an NPC woman lying in the shallow spring water in the Volcanic area with her arms behind her head.
The shoulder in this pose is very ugly, but sadly there is no mod to fix this.
If you look at the various vanilla poses where she raises arms above shoulders, there are also some that don't break shoulders like that.
And so is your mod. very natural.
Do you have any intention of making a mod that modifies the pose in which lying with arms behind head?