Hi, 

  So you noticed I wasn't going too well, I've made more and more rushed mods with unoriginal ideas. I was in great pain in these times, I didn't know where to go, everything was dark for me. I wasn't in control of what was happening to me. So here's what hapenned :

  In my life, I didn't have had the occasion to make my own decisions, I always was someone's puppet. I always saw myself as an object, as a tool. My dad always wanted to have control over my life, even if he will always refuse to admit it. In his opinion, he was always right, because he was the "most experienced one". He always wanted to take decisions for me, so I never knew what freedom was like. He also took my achievements for himself, telling it's because I have "Good genetics", and all my failures were on my or my mom's account. It was such an issue that I had to cut him off for a year, and that's where I knew what freedom was like. It was during this time where I began to create a lot of things and exploring myself, I began to create a lot of content, either it is 3D models and animations, photography, and even here I created a lot of awesome things. 

  A year passed and my grandbrother insisted that I pick up contact again with my dad, and he seemed to have changed, onmy to realize it was simply in appearence. He didn't progress in a year, he just stayed the same and tried to manipulate me into staying. He caused massive psychological damages here, and I never knew I could suffer that much. Even there, I gave him four months for him to redeem himself, to atone, to say "I'm sorry for what I did", but he never did. In fact, he said that he was right doing so, and that staying was the better option, insisting that I should come back to him. And so I asked online on what I should do, and all the answers were the same, that I should cut him off. And so I did, and I started to feel better. I started healing because I was in control again, and I wasn't feeding a parasite that would keep me away from having the freedom to choose. I also got some new internet friends that helped me making peace with the past, I became more focused at work and even got myself to the gym. I feel a bit horrible for admitting this, but I'm way better off without him. I feel dumb that I didn't notice it earlier for all this time, it would have been way easier if I made it clear to everyone that he was not only a liar, but a manipulator and a hypocrite. I know now that even if I beg him to let me go, to forge my own future, that even if I go down on my knees for it, he simply won't let me, not willingly, and that he'll always use psychological violence for me. 

I mean sure, that's true, he did a lot of good things for me, I have a lot of good memories, he taught me how to drive, he bought me a super-computer at his home (even if I told him to buy a computer for himself so that he would either work from home, or create things but he only downloaded a whole lot of video-games). We went on a lot of unforgettables bike rides where it felt amazing. The thing is, I want to build my own life, make choices that are my own, and determine my own future, and I can't do it with someone who will always hold me back, and try to turn me into a person I'm not. 

So I'm sorry if it's long, but what do you think of all of this? I know I still feel a bit of guilt, but I know how it will go if I give him a third chance, and that this time he may even go harder with the psychological violence. So in my opinion, I took the right decision