Your Own Words
Speaking aloud or talking to yourself did not border on insanity in my opinion. Quite the opposite as I saw it as a mind trying to understand itself and those problems around it. When you're alone and speaking to nothing but the air you gain a perspective of your current ideology. Words to yourself can be powerful, even they don't seem to have any meaning.
My words with the Overseer made me rethink my understanding of my place. My faith was shaken recently and while I kept moving forward I think I was walking almost in light footsteps instead of heavy strides like I did before. "Genetics don't matter as long as you don't lose hope," was what I said to him. That's when I listened to my own words and knew finally that I still had a job to do.
I think I became more determined after that but also maybe a little colder. I would help people when I could but my demeanor became very aloof. That wouldn't change until well after the purifier was activated though a part of me thinks that it was necessary. I had to stop beating myself up, taking burdens on myself that I knew would only hinder me. There was enough guilt in the world that I didn't need to be grabbing for more. Raising my head high I gave Cross determined look and followed after the Overseer.
I needed to see this through.